So my latest theatre venture is a rock opera called "Tommy." Basically it is the journey of a young boy who is left in a catatonic state after witnessing a murder in his own home. When he is in the senseless state, he becomes subject to all kinds of abuse. Not only is he a victim, but all the other characters are victims of something. There's doubt, drugs, alcohol, sex, trauma, neglect, betrayal, and ultimately forgiveness. So yeah, it's a heavy show.
It's gotten me to think about my spiritual life. Theatre seems to do that with me. In almost every show I've been in, I've connected with it spiritually in some way. With a content heavy show like this one, the only thing people will see is the things that bother them. However, the big picture is what I tend to look at. The overall story that it's trying to convey. That's what I usually see and that's where I see if God is trying to tell me something through the art I am in.
What Tommy has been teaching me is that I need to stop being a victim. I have experienced quite a bit of hurt here recently, and I'm refusing to let it go. Mostly because I am too proud to admit that I'm wrong for holding this in for so long. I think that lately I have been in a spiritual catatonic state. I know God is here, but I have been wallowing in this hurt for so long, that I can't see, hear, or feel Him...let alone talk to Him. The only way to break free is to break away the things that hold me back. In Tommy's case, it is the mirror he witnessed the tragic murder in. Once the mirror is broken, he becomes free.
I think that God is trying to move me away, so He can smash the mirror that reminds me of my past. See, only His grace and mercy can set us free. In in Him we are truly free indeed. It's our choice to walk in that freedom or not. God is the one who has shed light on these things in my life that have hurt me. I know that it is time for not only me, but everyone else who has been hurt to rise up and listen to The Lord and let Him guide you out into a new season.
If you're tired of being angry, being hurt, being a victim, stand up and proclaim your freedom. Smash the mirror. Forget your past and let God remind you of what's ahead for you. Let His light shine in your life! As this verse says:
"for the light makes everything visible. This is why it is said, “Awake, O sleeper, rise up from the dead, and Christ will give you light.” (Ephesians 5:14 NLT)
I know that I am sick and tired of being bullied by what happened at church. I'm tired of even seeing a church and getting mad. I'm sick of seeing someone from that church post on social media and get angry. I want to see, feel, and hear God in a whole new way.
I know what I can do to be free, but I also know what God can do to make me even more free. Only He can make things new. You can't do anything apart from Him. People can hurt you, but God can heal you. So move forward, even though you feel like you cannot. Just that one prayer will move you closer to the light. The question is, will you be brave enough to face your past and say, "I've had enough."
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